Do you know what I’m really frustrated about? I wanna get fu..

Do you know what I’m really frustrated about? I wanna get fucked long and hard for Christmas and maybe I could but I’m still too in love with a man from my past to even let a new guy touch me. 🤬

There’s this guy I kinda wanna be introduced to. My friend’s man’s, friend, but I’m totally avoiding meeting him like ever, just so we won’t end up in bed together. He’s single, he sounds like a great guy, he’s hot, but I ain’t trying to catch feelings for nobody and unfortunately, if the sex is good, that could potentially turn into feelings. So I’m just gonna keep being lonely and masturbating while avoiding this man at all cost.

For those of you who don’t know, I haven’t allowed a man to touch me since January 2018. After my heart was broken in September 2018, I went out and tried to have as many rebounds as I could. Nameless, meaningless sex with strangers was supposed to make me feel all better, but it was terrible each time, so I stopped having sex altogether. I haven’t had good sex since July 2018 and it was with the man who left me heartbroken.

Though y’all should be thankful for the man who broke my heart and the strangers who couldn’t satisfy me, if it weren’t for them, I would’ve never started doing porn. You see, I was so heartbroken that every time I tried to masturbate, I couldn’t cum because I would just start thinking about him, and that would make me sad. Finally, I decided to make an adult video. I had wanted to for years, but I was too scared. Somehow, I gathered the courage, made the video, uploaded it onto my first website, and the adrenaline rush I got was amazing, plus the thought of strangers watching me turned me on enough to finally make me cum. If it weren’t for that heartbreak, “KaylaNicole999” would’ve never been “born”.

If I’m being honest, part of it was pure vindictiveness. When I decided to make my pornhub page shortly after making that first video, my thoughts were: I’ll make that mother fucker miss me. I had no way to ensure I popped up on his recommended videos list when you first open pornhub, but I knew the kind of shit hen likes, like pawgs, for example, so now I am sure to make a bunch of “pawg” videos so I can use that tag and hope he can’t avoid seeing me. You can block on pornhub, but I don’t know if when you block an account if it prevents your videos from appearing on your feed. Also, I don’t know if he has an account, when I watch pornhub, I watch anonymously.

I didn’t want him back, I was so mad at him, I just wanted to make him cry every time one of my videos appeared in his feed. 🤷‍♀️

I seem like this “nice”, “sweet” girl, and I am, as long as you treat me right, but I’m the wrong bitch to fuck with.

Here’s a bit of the backstory: In January 2019, months after he ghosted me, I ran into him at the club with a girl he told me was “just a friend” when we were seeing each other. So that night I text his friend asking, “do you wanna fuck?” I didn’t hear back from said friend, so I fucked a random. The sex was terrible, but I faked it, took video of myself faking it, sent that video to his friend, just to be a bitch. I knew his friend would tell him I sent it… Friend later texts. By that time I’m sobering up and crying in my hallway, but I still stupidly have that friend send a car for me anyway. I cry on his friend’s shoulder for hours, but then friend offered me wine… I don’t want to talk about what happened after that. I was miserable for a year. It was a terrible year.

Anyways, by March of 2020 I started my pornhub page.